Part 1 – Our First Truce
Part 2 – Emotions
This post is the final installment of my series on Dysfunctional Communication.
Part 3 – The Truce Box Talk
Perhaps this last part would have been better titled, Rules of Engagement, as that is what we were really attempting to do: To actually engage each other in our own grievances. But I had already chosen The Truce Box Talk sooooo, I went with that one.
First things first. It’s presupposed that if you are reading this far in the series that you and your spouse have made the decision that you are going to fight for your marriage, regardless of where that journey may take you. That was the place where Darrell and I had ended up, between the proverbial rock and hard place. It was not good, but once you’ve removed the idea of divorce from the table you are left with only 1 logical option, fight for your marriage no matter how bad it is.
Our marriage is living proof that necessity really is the mother of invention. That invention was our Truce Box.
The truce had served its purpose – there was peace. But now we were going to move onto the next step: Engage in conflict. This was scary. When you get to this level of dysfunction in your marriage, things have gone unsaid for so long and there are so many problems, that it’s almost unbearable to broach them. The emotional weight attached to each one makes it seem impossible to lift onto the table of discussion.
Accept that it’s going to be messy and hard …
but not undoable.
Some things are going to be very difficult to say and some things will be even harder to hear. The Truce Box Talk is not about being right or wrong; but being safe. Think of it as being in a meeting at a boardroom table with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit as the CEOs.
Its purpose is to allow naked communication by stripping away the feelings and emotions that come from conflict. Clearing away all of the confusion, assumptions, miscommunications and misunderstandings. The first few times it will feel awkward and disjointed, kind of like learning a new dance to a song you’ve never heard. But with practice you become a more skilled partner.
And now, our Rules of Engagement:
RULE 1 – Public Location
Public was safe, for both of us. I was safe from Darrell’s angry aggression and he was kept safe from my verbal tirades that lead to emotional unravelling.
There is a certain standard of polite behaviours that society expects from its adults, we could sum them up in the word civilized. Being out in public forced us to be on our best behaviour with each other. We were able to speak freely but it had to be done with care and dignity, which is the way we should have been speaking all along.
Rule 2 – Honesty
Honesty with each other and self. Sounds pretty straight forward and simple, but it’s not so easy. Honesty takes courage. It meant we each had to be brave enough to reveal our real thoughts. Courage to believe that it didn’t matter what the other thought, only what God thought. There is no faster way to kill communication than by the fear that’s rooted in self-consciousness.
Rule 3 – Acceptance
This rule was based on the premise that everything goes. This meant that whatever Darrell said, I accepted as true and real – to him. And vice versa for me. It’s drilling down on the idea that each other’s hearts are more important than who is right. It’s rooted in others before self rather than self-seeking.
- Hearing and accepting – NOT defending, NOT arguing and NO rebuttal
- Trying to put yourself in the shoes of another to really understand
- Listening with the intent to validate
Rule 4 – Freedom
Not all things were settled when they were first broached and most things relational are just not cut & dried. Old habits of relating die hard and new ones take time to develop. If When either of us fell back into old ways of responding reacting, we gave each other the freedom to say, “You are still doing it.” Or, “You did it again.”
In the beginning there was a temptation to disregard the rules of engagement that we had established. This generally meant that one of us would delve into conflict on the spur of the moment. We gave each other the freedom to invoke a truce, even if it was the one who started the conflict in the first place.
The truth box talk is not about
- saying your say to get your way
- making a decision
- who makes decisions
- what is the right decision
… but is about
- learning how to arrive at solutions together
- working as a team
- growing in unity through trust and peace
- striving for maturity
It has been humbling to put pen to paper (so to speak) and relive this pivotal time in our marriage. As I walked down the halls of my memory I was reminded again just how fragile people can be. How easy it is to become self-centered, or to misread a heart and assume the worse in our spouses. How we need to be on guard against the wiles of the enemy as he seeks to trespass between husbands and wives in an effort to destroy our marriages. I was reminded that if either of us had given up on God and walked away because of conflict, trials and tribulations in our marriage, neither of us would be experiencing the abundance of the blessings of faith, strength and unity that we now have. Thank you for reading and giving me the opportunity to relive it.
The single biggest problem with communication is the illusion that it has taken place. –George Bernard Shaw